Do it!

    What's with love?
It's not supposed to be easy, I get that, but does it have to be so hard?...
    Love is the one emotion in the whole universe that baffles us like no other. It's beautiful, incredible, and incredibly TERRIFYING.It's REAL, and when it's real it's definitely real, but when it's not....well, its horribly painful borderline devastating, over the edge bat shit crazy.
    We all want it, but than the moment we have it we piss it away 99% of the time.We can't handle it or we don't appreciate it until we feel the pain of losing it. Or we call it lust, which i'll get to later, and we chalk it up as a loss. If by sheer chance that we don't do any of those things and we become genuinely simpatico butterflies making me nauseous on the regular can't keep my hands, eyes, lips off of you kind of inlove, than you hold onto that. Fall inlove over and over again. A little more every day. Turned on not only by their dashing good looks, but with their mind...with every beautiful thought they think, with the way they smell, the way their voice sounds. How groggy they are in the morning or how they always take too long in the shower. Love them because not only do you need them...you WANT them, and only them every day...forever!
     So than what's the deal with loneliness....we're needy us women, well us humans really...men are just as bad. We're lonely when we're not in a relationship, we're lonely when we are in a relationship and our partner just happens to not be around. or be in the same room or be up our ass where I tend to like to keep them for safety purposes of course...we're lonely when we're alone alone, we're lonely when we're surrounded by a ton of people,especially if they're not any of the people  that we " want " necessarily. We become blind when we fall inlove. We see one person and one person only...which in marriage is a beautiful thing, or when your in an equally happy honest partnership, NOT when your inlove and the other person either doesn't have a clueeee about the way you feel OR when the person doessss know how you feel, and doesn't feel the same. Love man....rough.
     This brings me to LUST. Hmmmm lust is a tricky one. This one gets us every time.  Now me, i'm a lover...I wanna be your rock,  I wanna pick you up when the rest of the world has let you down. This contrary emotion often gets the best of us, me included. Lust feels good, it feels right. It's that instant spark, the  initial " our eyes met from across the room and we just knew" feeling. God do I love that.  You haven't even spoke a single word to this person and in the 15 seconds it takes you to walk over to them you've already mentally written atleast a paragraph of your wedding vows and picked out the colors of your bridesmaid dresses. Yep! That's the human race.
     I think although that lust is crucial because it's what keeps us still believing that love is real. We know that we're  not dead inside, it makes us feel good. Hope is everlasting and it keeps us motivated. I need to melt inside sometimes when someone touches my hand, I need to remember that the world is not as cold as I wanna think it is when i've been alone too long.
     In conclusion, all of this ewy gooey emotional crap is confusing, but that's what this big funny overpopulated world is all about. So go with your gut, have faith...and just LOVE/LUST and be HAPPY for that moment, that moment is your life